Olivia Rodrigo — brutal

I want it to be, like, messy I'm so insecure, I think That I'll die before I drink And I'm so caught up in the news Of who likes me and who hates you And I'm so tired that I might Quit my job, start a new life And they'd all be so disappointed 'Cause who am I if not exploited? And I'm so sick of seventeen Where's my fucking teenage dream? If someone tells me one more time "Enjoy your youth," I'm gonna cry And I don't stick up for myself I'm anxious, and nothing can help And I wish I'd done this before And I wish people liked me more All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here I feel like no one wants me And I hate the way I'm perceived I only have two real friends And lately, I'm a nervous wreck 'Cause I love people I don't like And I hate every song I write And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart And I can't even parallel park All I did was try my best This the kinda thanks I get? Unrelentlessly upset They say these are the golden years But I wish I could disappear Ego crush is so severe God, it's brutal out here Got a broken ego, broken heart And God, I don't even know where to start