Tom MacDonald — Dont Look Down

I can't hide my frown, my smile is hiding from my mouth I can't lie, my mind keeps finding time to fight myself I dive so deep inside, feel like I died and I'm in hell Or I'm so high, my eyes can't see the ground beneath the clouds Don't look down Don't look down I tried to keep it quiet, silence all my cries for help As long as I am rising 'til I'm upside down, I won't look down This a meteoric rise Keep ignoring all the horror stories like So-and-so, got way too famous And ended up killing himself with some pills and a knife, ayy I am not the one who's gonna self-destruct Got it out the mud I came way too far to fail and screw it up I ain't droppin' balls, I just blew 'em up, ayy I will never let my mental illness be the cause of my downfall I will never lie to none of my fans, if I did, it would sound wrong I will never try convincin' you dummies, this isn't a town hall Never look down, never look down, just look around, y'all Ayy, all of my demons are here All I can feel is fear All I can do is keep bein' myself And that's what I been doin' for 32 years All of my haters came out, chasin' my name for some clout What are they angry about? They're climbing as high as their ladders can take 'em And screamin' my name, but I don't look down Hi, guys, remember me? I'm the white guy Everybody wanted to cancel, nice try Too sick, I might die right Two fists full of middle fingers, I got no time for high fives Too rich for a drive-by Pay the pilot on my private jet to keep it low and do a fly-by Take nine knives on a bike ride Why nine? 'Cause I heard that a pussy has nine lives I'm the one that y'all hated I'm the one who won the game, got paid and famous I'm the one who laughed in all they faces And became the greatest since old Slim Shady I'm the one who don't care, I'm the one who goes where No one goes 'cause they're scared I'm the one who don't choke when the boat don't float My throat gets no air I can barely breathe all the air I need Oxygen is very thin at the top I can rarely sleep, stars I'm underneath Shining too bright, and I can't turn 'em off I'm high as the birds now Flying too close to the sun, got a burn, wow I been turnin' up, and I ain't turnin' down Maybe I should chill, but I ain't learnin' how Ayy, I'm not afraid of success I'm afraid of what happens if I take a rest I'm afraid that I'll end up where I was before In the hood, with no money or food for the rent I'm scared if I look at the water, I'll drown So I look at the sky and deny there's a ground I'm not scared of the altitude up in the clouds I'm scared of the fall, so I don't look down Fuck you, every single motherfuckin' one of you I can't even see you because I don't look down Hahahahaha Yeah I can't hide my tears, I dry my eyes and more come out I can't lie, my fear is suicide, not bank accounts Keep my chin up, but my head weighs, like, a million pounds Feels like my neck might break, I hear it crack, ignore the sound Don't look down Don't look down I tried to keep it quiet, silence all my cries for help As long as I am rising 'til I'm upside down, I won't look down This a legendary climb Stand on the edge of the ledge and it's very high Think of the men who are dead 'Cause it got to their head at a cemetery time I ain't the one who gon' throw it away 'Cause I'm feelin' too lonely up here I ain't the guy who gon' break from the pressure It's snowy, my pipes are not frozen up here I don't wanna hear about these YouTube rappers I am not in that bracket, punk Billboard plaques all stacked in my mansion A million cash for my taxes, punk Call me trash while I produce anthems Y'all attackin' with plastic guns I'm the biggest independent rapper in the fuckin' world You just live on my planet, punk Got an acid tongue and massive lungs Every single track I've done has packed a punch Used to be an addict, yup, I crashed a truck in Canada Goin' too fast, blackout, drunk I was nice at the start, but the mood all changed The reactors who trash me for views are lame Don't ask me to help you remove no claims If I see you punks, you gon' lose your chains I am the one who they all called a liar When I told 'em that I'd help my mom retire They thought that I'd buy a new crib and a chain And a ring, and a whip, and some rims for the tires Guess what? Mom don't work Sent a 100 grand in a LV purse Made the album with Nova and Brandon They own half the masters, I told 'em the fam comes first Still got the pills that the doctor gave me To combat the depression and the panic attacks I'm the type of person who won't even take a Tylenol Even when I got a dozen knives in my back They're callin' me wack, but I don't react I don't have time to write raps, replyin' to trash I'll meet a whole team, yeah, they're tryin' to cap I'm concrete, but my demons hide in the cracks I'm the one, I ain't bought liquor for months And you're lucky I'm sober, I'm nuts when I'm drunk Mix the whiskey with soda, the man I'd become Would invite you all over, put drugs in your punch When you pass out, I'll wrap you in plastic And hit you with hammers and flatten your skull 'til it's crushed I don't name names, I don't play games I just aim, spray and throw out the gun The rappers who hate act like family now They're tryna jack my style like some hand-me-downs They want a million views, I want a Grammy now And the closest they'll come is they grammy's house I don't even drink, but I'm plannin' how I can make a brewery in a massive house To give free booze out to these rappin' clowns And they could die usin' that to wash Xannies down I'm the most successful guy to hold a pencil I've been great for so long, I'm bored of flexin' I became a machine made of iron, check inside Peel the skin off and let the metal shine I've been the greatest for so fuckin' long It feels normal for me to be special So much clout, I could buy back the souls of these rappers That sold 'em for cash to the devil Why is everybody always talkin' shit? Criticizin' how I'm doin' it my way? If I'm so trash, why don't y'all release your videos on a Friday? 'Cause that's my day, comparing our numbers, you'd cook like some fried eggs Pussy like wide legs, you only get views if you say my name Angry I'm famous and not a great rapper, and you been workin' stupid hard I don't have to rap fast to impress all my fans, I am a superstar, hahahahaha! Man, I'm built for this, I'd kill for this Never get back for the blood that I spilled for this I'm at the top, it don't even seem high enough I need a couple more hills and some stilts for this Ayy, there ain't nobody around The top of the mountain, I scream and I shout Nobody up here but me is allowed The VIP section is deep in the clouds Go ahead and call me a clown 'Cause I cannot hear it, your sky is my ground To look me in the eye, you'd have to reach the summit I won't see you comin', I don't look down If I stepped on glass and my feet on fire My toes turn black and my shoes melt off And my bones touch ground, I will not look back, I cannot look down I don't care about how hard it gets I gotta be the fire in the dark, I guess I got a beating heart inside an iron chest If they're sleepin' on me, I ain't tryin' to rest Hope they die in their sleep while I climb to the peak And their eyes never see all the heights that I reach I deserve it 'cause I took the stairs to the moon I might die from exhaustion, but I like the view I'm higher than planets, the average person Would die from the temperature, bodies are burning The oxygen needed for life is inadequate I hold my breath until I'm turning purple All my life all you did was doubt And now my success gon' kill you now Wish I could see and put you in the ground But as bad as I want to, I'll never look down Hahahahaha You don't get it still? I am the one, hahahahaha You don't have to admit it to yourself, you don't have to admit it You don't have to tell the whole world that when you look at me You have to look up to me, and I don't look down Everybody, please keep on talking I am a fucking superstar Hahahahaha